Crocodile walk

My plan was to stay home the whole day and do NOTHING! Filippa and I started according to this plan and cuddled up in the sofa with ipad and computer, but as time went it felt like a waste of sunshine to stay inside. So, we took crocodile and kickbike up to furi and walked down to blatten! We were extremly lucky to bump in to kat and ali, and 2hours later we headed down to town again, with a flammkuchen and soup in our bellys..6 hours after we left we came home again, with lots of fresh air in our lungs and brown/red cheeks from the sun!!! Fantastic day with my best partner in crime;)  

    
    
 

Grächen ein märchen

Have been to grächen and their ski club race:) first time i am up on the mountain in grächen and it was a fantastic place for filippa:) she skied alone up and down, up and down!!! Now we are already back in zermatt because now we have to puck up sofia and caroline who will arrive with the train in 10min! Hopphopp!!!  

  The whole family in the lift:)  can you see the sheep enjoying the sun? 
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The hubby! 

   Down in the valleynits already spring:)

Pics in my phone

We went to check the new tunnel out, exciting if you ask filippa and her very good friends jonas and olivia:)   
   Filippa had had a cough and i found a new medicine thanks to one of my pt clients. Very good!  
  Filippa didnt want to sleep and instead joined demi in the office. Filippa muss schaffe!  
    
  These are the two girls we hear most about at home since the day she was able to say their names..there is power in all three of them..will be very exciting to see what comes in the future…think i will not always have a smile on my face… 

   This pic is older than a week, because it is now a week ago filippa gave her nukki to the nukki tree. We had 3-4 nights where she woke up and asked for it, and cried crocodile tears at bedtime. But now it is all good. She doesnt ask for it and falls asleep without problems. Now it is still only me that can miss her face expression of complete calm and security when she got the nukki in her mouth at night…i play with the thought “what would happen if i now gave it to her”? I have to tell myself to “get over it” and “grow up”!! 

This is how i felt a bitnafter the firdt nights…

 
   My little douschkidooo!!! 
Tomorrow monday and lots of work for 5 days, then weekend again. So happy that i decided on having weekends off. Works most weekends:)  

I want to be alone- i never want to be without you

i am on the train towards the airport and stockholm to see my university friends and my cousin Emily! Yay! A fantastic tradition! Have been looking forward to this for so long. Not only to see my friends, but also to be alone on the train, travel by myself and only have to care about me myself and I! 

  But as i now sit here i cant help to think that it would have been sooooo nice if demi and filippa would have been here too! I am trying to tell myself that it probably would have been very loud and stressful but even so I think it would have been very cosy! 

How weird that is…i can loooong for time alone, but when i have it, i miss them like crazy!  

   

new strategy

last minute i made the week goal, touring twice! I only made it up to sunnegga, afterwards it was no longer “fun”, but i have already improved so much on the steep parts so that is really fun!  

 The only thing worrying me now (and partly the reason that i didnt walk further) is how fast the little fat reserve i managed to build up during the autumn disapeared. I look in the mirror and to me i look as skinny and miserable as last winter. If i want this to work i somehow have to start eat more..and for people who know me, nor the amount or what i eat is the reason for me being skinny. Also not that i “do to much”…

it is my genes!

My goal for next week is therefor to do one interval session indoors on the treadmill, once touring with the team and two fullbody heavy strength training to build “big heavy muscles”…

I will also eat much bigger snacks and try to organise my food better in advance! And start with caotina before bedtime. This vegan thing will have to step aside for a while…or,

I will continue to eat less meat but cheese and milk will be full on again… 

Over and out

Additionally: of course i need to eat more, otherwise I wouldn’t be so bloody skinny. What i am saying is that i dont eat little, i eat as big portions as demian, more than all girl friends i have met so far. I eat 4-5 times a day depending on when i get up in the morning. I eat at least once warm a day. My body just burns it all away:( 

like the frosties commercial

today has been a fantastic day. In one way nothing special happened but i have been very much in peace with myself and with filippa.

It started with a sleep in. I woke up 8.32 with filippa next to me. Demian was in Lenk. We were cuddeling a bit and talkimg about that matterhorn was gone and “where has it gone??”(cloudy). I had organised opa reini to look after filippa from 9-12 so i could go touring but abandoned that idea since we slept so long. Breakfast would be to tight on training and i would just feel really tired. Sleeping and having a rest is sometimes more important…

We had breakfast and afterwards a happy filippa went to opa, still in her pyjama. I made myself a big coffee, checked my fav blogs and went up to continue my bookkeeping for 2015. Worked really well until 12 and then a happy hungry filippa came back.  Got this pic from reini:)

 We had lunch and then played that she and all her stuffed animals were on a boat on a wild ocean! 

Afterwards we went sledging and it was snowing like crazy and i had to run and push the whole time since the snow was wet and SLOW!  

    
 A exhausted filippa fell asleep on the sledge and continued to sleep on the floor at sarahs place where we had coffee afterwards. 

Afterwards we went to meet demi who had come back from lenk. We walked home and i made pancakes for snack and it was like american happy family in the frosties commercial! It was getting dark and demi put a fire on and went to the gym. Filippa watched the ipad and i read a book(!!!!)! Then demi came home again and we made a good attempt in making filippa tired by playing circus and hide and seek. 

Then i tried to put her to bed and she fell asleep straight away (this is NOT TRUE, but that story will maybe be another post tomorrow). After 40minutes of not sleeping me and demian managed to still cook the adult dinner we had planned and looked forward to and sit down alone for 15minutes with filippa in her room playing (21.00 at night, 1,5 hours after normal bedtime). 

Afterwards filippa DID fall asleep and i finished (!!!) my book infront of the fire..

Ha??? What do you think of that day? Once every 10th year this happens! HARMONY!  

Ps. Not written is all the cleaning of dish, floors and baby butts…plus how wet and cold we were after sledging, the toothbrush fight, the fact that filippa had pyjama on the whole day and the 2hour of trying to put filippa to bed…

But it was a FANTASTIC DAY! 

Good night

SNOW!!!

   

 

   
 

 

 Finally snow!!! We took a super angry filippa sledging, despite many “lying on the floor screaming” melt downs! Once up the mountain she was afain happy! Afterwards we went to sonnmatten for hot chocolate and cake! 

Walking home from work now and it is snowing again! Yay! Time for me to do some training. Will go skinning by myself…me and a podcast! Yay! 

 

 

Christmas Eve

we had a really nice christmas eve! Sarina had made amazing salads and yummi salmon bread:) not very traditional christmas food but who needs that when there are plenty of other delicious dishes?

I managed to organise a santa last minute. He even spoke swedish, thank you gunnar! Success! Filippa was scared in the beginning but soon noticed that he was very nice and afterwards he got a hug AND a kiss..and we all know filippa is not kissing unless she really wants to.

  

  
Chloe was asleep when santa arrived but she was super cute and super upset in her outfit from oma, filippa got the same:)

 Everyone except demian:)

  Felix and nina gave the best present according to filippa. A playmobil helicopter! Wehuuuu!!! Tant miri gave the nice pyjama, also success! From Opa she got a jacket and leather sandals from Korfu. So nice! From us she got pearls, small animals, a book, cars and a small helicopter. She is crazy about helicopters!

    Demian got socks that had to be put on straight away!
   I got a nice backpack and cool Bose headphones with unbelievable sound!

And then we got really nice things in sweden, but i am to lazy to write it all down! Thank you anyway, all who thought of us in sweden and australia!!!

A tired Filippa went to bed by herself around 11…Good Night!

My weekend

filippa and i went to baselland this weekend, to visit my best cousin and friend caroline. Very little inet and very little phone time (soooo nice) and therefor no pictures, which is really sad because now i still dont have a decent picture of caroline and filippa. Wellwell, we had fantastic two days together with xmas shopping and blablablabla! Extremely tired and full of energy at the same time after this weekend! Thaaaank you!  

 Filippa and adi played so we could talk:)

   Filippa sleeps on the train
Snow in kandersteg on the way home
 

Surprise lunch

My friend nathalie had bday this week and we surprised her with lunch up at the italian border at restaurant testa grigia. I dont think the rest is called testa grigia but i cant be bothered to look it up! Anyway, we were skinning up at it went both faster and much easier than last time, pjuh! Here some pics from the day!  

    
    
    
   Have a nice weekend everyone!